Friday, July 30, 2004
i'll never forgive anyone who does things to hurt me deliberately. end of story.
buy me a tiara and some stars;
4:20:00 PM
Sunday, July 25, 2004
i felt a lil bit funny today.
maybe a lil bit happy, maybe a lil bit sad.
or perhaps a lil bit suicidial.
i wanted to be different, i wanted you to understand.
wanted you to listen, i wanted you to stay.
but you didnt and left instead.
so i bleed just to know im alive;
buy me a tiara and some stars;
12:37:00 AM
Friday, July 23, 2004
we've all gotten into the hair frenzy. sort of painted my hair blue, pink, purple and orange. walked past some ah lians and they thought it was nice. =)
yesterday, hair was purple, pink and orange. went out with those colors on my hair. received weird stares. mummy thought it was nice?! alrights. went heartland with yuens, pau, pui and fran. i felt a lil left out? i dont know. maybe it's just me. had this feeling they didnt want me there or something. anyway, she's really getting on my nerves. i wonder if she regrets. wonder if she misses. school was.. boring. we had like, three free periods. gawd. sat with rebecks. laughed like crazy over her chi-na reading. she's loopy. i am too.
today's my cousie's birthday! happy birthday~
buy me a tiara and some stars;
7:15:00 PM
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
realised something after c.i.p.
we have gerontophobia or olfactophobia.
'we' in general.
in english, it means the fear of old people, the fear of smells and odours. i finally having a proper post. :) we made a trip down to the home for the aged sick down lorong ah soo. well, it so happens that i was pretty nervous. cause i was sort of scared of old peeps and it turned out that i wasnt the only one.
but it turned out well. not as bad as i thought. at least, i could communicate with one or two. went oms for lunch. had fun? im not too sure. atmosphere was a lil weird. i've tired. too bad, i didnt succeed.
i miss my ah ma. though i've just seen her. she's been heading to the doc's recently.. for all the tests for her liver. i dont know. i dont know what's wrong and im really worried. i cant lose her, i really cant.
buy me a tiara and some stars;
7:56:00 PM
Monday, July 19, 2004
sometimes,
we all feel a little invisible.
sometimes,
we would all like to disappear.
and those little sometimes,
makes one feel so vulnerable.
buy me a tiara and some stars;
6:53:00 PM
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
im sick.
bwahas.
buy me a tiara and some stars;
9:01:00 PM
Sunday, July 11, 2004
isolation;
maybe thats what you wanted for me.
stronger;
thats what you made me.
strangers;
are what we are right now.
lovers;
thats what we were then.
im sorry that things had to turn out this way.
im sorry if ive hurt you in anyway.
i just wish...
buy me a tiara and some stars;
4:50:00 PM
Thursday, July 08, 2004
i've been pulled into a sea of conflicts,
which i've played no part in.
it's funny how one can do things which one regrets later on in life.
she showed no sign of remorse.
skeptical.
i tried hard enough.
i was too naiive.
i guess it all ends there and then.
the chapter's closed.
so please,
just stop it.
she's all but a loomy figure of a stranger standing infront of me.
buy me a tiara and some stars;
9:31:00 PM
Thursday, July 01, 2004
*have you forgotten me?
maybe i should take the first step?
have you felt so alone, you just wanted to end it all?
have you ever felt like you were coming between everything?
or perhaps,
felt like leaving without saying?
felt like your pressence worth nothing?
felt like no one could see you?
felt so numb you just couldn't feel it anymore.
felt that nothing was worth fighting for?
felt so abandoned you wished someone could there to give a comforting shoulder to lean on.
felt like your tears couldn't stop?
felt like you wanted to do things all over again?
and all these images were distorted.
sometimes, the real stuff aint real enough.
maybe it's all an act.
we felt so distant, that feeling was almost excruciating.
some things should be forgotten and forgiven.
i've become so numb,
i dont regconise the face i see in the mirror now.
buy me a tiara and some stars;
6:06:00 PM
Friday, July 30, 2004
i'll never forgive anyone who does things to hurt me deliberately. end of story.
buy me a tiara and some stars;
Sunday, July 25, 2004
i felt a lil bit funny today.
maybe a lil bit happy, maybe a lil bit sad.
or perhaps a lil bit suicidial.
i wanted to be different, i wanted you to understand.
wanted you to listen, i wanted you to stay.
but you didnt and left instead.
so i bleed just to know im alive;
buy me a tiara and some stars;
Friday, July 23, 2004
we've all gotten into the hair frenzy. sort of painted my hair blue, pink, purple and orange. walked past some ah lians and they thought it was nice. =)
yesterday, hair was purple, pink and orange. went out with those colors on my hair. received weird stares. mummy thought it was nice?! alrights. went heartland with yuens, pau, pui and fran. i felt a lil left out? i dont know. maybe it's just me. had this feeling they didnt want me there or something. anyway, she's really getting on my nerves. i wonder if she regrets. wonder if she misses. school was.. boring. we had like, three free periods. gawd. sat with rebecks. laughed like crazy over her chi-na reading. she's loopy. i am too.
today's my cousie's birthday! happy birthday~
buy me a tiara and some stars;
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
realised something after c.i.p.
we have gerontophobia or olfactophobia.
'we' in general.
in english, it means the fear of old people, the fear of smells and odours. i finally having a proper post. :) we made a trip down to the home for the aged sick down lorong ah soo. well, it so happens that i was pretty nervous. cause i was sort of scared of old peeps and it turned out that i wasnt the only one.
but it turned out well. not as bad as i thought. at least, i could communicate with one or two. went oms for lunch. had fun? im not too sure. atmosphere was a lil weird. i've tired. too bad, i didnt succeed.
i miss my ah ma. though i've just seen her. she's been heading to the doc's recently.. for all the tests for her liver. i dont know. i dont know what's wrong and im really worried. i cant lose her, i really cant.
buy me a tiara and some stars;
Monday, July 19, 2004
sometimes,
we all feel a little invisible.
sometimes,
we would all like to disappear.
and those little sometimes,
makes one feel so vulnerable.
buy me a tiara and some stars;
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
im sick.
bwahas.
buy me a tiara and some stars;
Sunday, July 11, 2004
isolation;
maybe thats what you wanted for me.
stronger;
thats what you made me.
strangers;
are what we are right now.
lovers;
thats what we were then.
im sorry that things had to turn out this way.
im sorry if ive hurt you in anyway.
i just wish...
buy me a tiara and some stars;
Thursday, July 08, 2004
i've been pulled into a sea of conflicts,
which i've played no part in.
it's funny how one can do things which one regrets later on in life.
she showed no sign of remorse.
skeptical.
i tried hard enough.
i was too naiive.
i guess it all ends there and then.
the chapter's closed.
so please,
just stop it.
she's all but a loomy figure of a stranger standing infront of me.
buy me a tiara and some stars;
Thursday, July 01, 2004
*have you forgotten me?
maybe i should take the first step?
have you felt so alone, you just wanted to end it all?
have you ever felt like you were coming between everything?
or perhaps,
felt like leaving without saying?
felt like your pressence worth nothing?
felt like no one could see you?
felt so numb you just couldn't feel it anymore.
felt that nothing was worth fighting for?
felt so abandoned you wished someone could there to give a comforting shoulder to lean on.
felt like your tears couldn't stop?
felt like you wanted to do things all over again?
and all these images were distorted.
sometimes, the real stuff aint real enough.
maybe it's all an act.
we felt so distant, that feeling was almost excruciating.
some things should be forgotten and forgiven.
i've become so numb,
i dont regconise the face i see in the mirror now.
buy me a tiara and some stars;
_amanda:
coded 12;
her king;
swirlies;
glitter;
stars;
tortisefamily.
