Sunday, February 29, 2004
I'm so irritated with my mom. Man.... she's behaving silly in her desperation to 'save' the wall. O.o?! She's painted the black part with dilluted white paint. What the hell....... okay. got no tv for the next three days. urgh. how am i gonna survive? cartoons!! they're gone for three days! man..... how bad can this get? okay okay. went out today. took neos. shall scan them later...... yeah. Urgh. went out with six peeps today. but....... seems like fran and company dont wanna go with us.. hmm. so sha me yuen walked on our own. so sad right? treat us like some alien like that. martherfarker. okay. never mind. got that toxic song stuck in my head!! used to hate that song.. haha. but after hearing it for a few times.. it's quite alright. yeah.. bought undies with yuen today. and a chain from perlini's. yep.. alright. i've decided. i shall get a mp3 player. yep.
//Limp bizkit - behind blue eyes
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9:17:00 PM
Ahahaha. they go sua teng pray. i not going cause going out later. yep. now.. waiting for ma's limp bizkit song to finish.... yeah!
//Britney spears - toxic
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10:22:00 AM
Saturday, February 28, 2004
What the fuxk man. Was doing the passport thingy online.. and guess what? the photo dont fit the size required. huh? all passport photos sama size wad... den they say waht must fit the image frame. was like. what the fuxk lorr. the frame is sssssoooooo big. scratch head man. by the time i enlarge the photo.. blurr diao le. urgh.
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11:29:00 PM
Ah!! Just got home man... my legs feels like it's burning... Ahahahaha. Alrights. Had kfc. nope. no chicken. had the cheese fries and some wedges.. with a few mouthfuls of whipped potato.. Yeppers! Haha. got leen's pressie.. yeah. And rejoice! our plan to go out tomorrow is not flopped. haha. still going out with a buncha peeps. small gathering of the sec 2d1'03. yeah. man, i love them. haha. not that i dont love 3d2 but.. some peeps, i just wont go out with unless in school u.. they're just.. too lian la. not for me. haha. wanted to ask char out. but guess she'll feel left out. so.... yeah. haha. urgh. the burning sensation's still there. wtf man. yeah, yeah. the music on ma's blog rawks.. like totally. haha. didn't head for school on friday. lotsa tests awaits me upon my return man. suckified say! urgh.. exams, tests, exams, tests. man.. what is school all about man. just tell me something. i need the answer! i just simply suck. been updating nonsense everyday. no one reads these crap man. i suck.. so bad. haha. changed jac's blog skin.. like i said. not sure if she likes it. so.. jaclyn! tell your fellow bandung something! Dont make me feel guilty about changing your skin without permission! urgh!! need an answer!! Alrights. adios. chao. nighty.
//Gareth gates - anyone of us
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11:03:00 PM
Friday, February 27, 2004
tore this from edith's blog. dated 261103. Haha.. here goes. it's kinda long winded. yeah..
MY
name : amanda
piercings : 5
tattoos : nopez..
height : 150
shoe size : 4
hair color: black?
siblings : 1 sista
LAST
movie you rented : i dont rent.
movie you bought : i dont buy.
song you listened to : now.. nothing. before that.. boyfriend
song that was stuck in your head : haha. boyfriend. haha
cd you bought : last bought? black eyed peas. they rawk.
cd you listened to : err... most recent.. the one i burned
person you've called : in the last 24 hours.. no one.
person that's called you : jaclyn
tv show you've watched : news. haha
person you were thinking of : her
DO
you have a crush on someone : yep. certainly do.
you wish you could live somewhere else : yeah. as a different person as well
you think about suicide : often
you believe in online dating : nope.
others find you attractive : eh.. no?
you want more piercings : yeah. absolutely.
you like cleaning : nope.
you like roller coasters : yeah.
you write in cursive or print : print. lit essays during exams... cursive.
FOR OR AGAINST
long distance relationships : against
using someone : for
suicide : for
killing people : against
teenage smoking : for
driving drunk : against
gay/lesbian relationships : for. obviously right..
soap operas : for! haha. i watch them.. =/
HAVE YOU
ever cried over a girl : yeah...
ever cried over a boy : err. no
ever lied to someone : always
ever been in a fist fight : err. yeah?
ever been arrested : yeah.. to the dm. haha
WHAT
shampoo do you use : pantenes.. is that how you spell it?
shoes do you wear : dolley.. err. sports.. err.. aiya. as long as it catches my eye, i buy it.. i wear it.
are you scared of : insects.reptiles.
NUMBER
of times I have been in love? :3
of times I have had my heart broken? : 3
of girls I have kissed? : haha. i'm not telling you.
of boys I have kissed?: eh... boys? err..
of girls I've slept (in a bed) with? : sista considered?
of boys I've slept (in a bed) with? : hmm...
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends : my mum. haha...
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? : lots. my name's just so so common..
of scars on my body? : truckloads
of things in my past that I regret? : lots
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
pretty : eh.... self-acclaimed chio bu. no la...
funny : funny? dont know.. you tell me.
hot : hot.. er.. hot?.. hmm..
friendly : well.. maybe?
amusing : haha... sort of.
ugly : see-able.
loveable : hmm.
caring : nope. absolutely not.
sweet : well... yeah?
dorky : nope. but pretty lame and weird
FAVORITE
5 letter word : fuck u.
actor/actress : Err....... i dont support any.
Candy : strawberry flavored lolly! aiya. every sweet also like as long as not la-la one. as in.. minty flavored
Cartoon : spongebob!
Cereal : eh... dont like cereal.
Chewing gum : prefer bubble gum
Color(s) : rainbow... haa. pink. black. red. white
Color nail polish : black
Day of week : saturday
Least fave day : every other day that i have to wake up early.
Flower : tulips.sun flowers
Jello flavor : peach! strawberry!
Jewelry : ear rings? bangles...
Special skills/talents: eh. i laugh till i cry? i can make my voice sound like im submerged in water... counted?
Summer/Winter : summer
Trampolines or swimming pools : trampolines!
PERSON WHO LAST.
Slept in your bed : me.
Saw you cry : me.
Made you cry : her.
You went to the movies with : my mum and sis
Yelled at you : eh. me? haha
Sent you an email : haven checked it in a long time. guess it's char.
Have you ever.
Said "I love you" and meant it? : yeah. lots. dont have to say it to that special someone.
Gone out in public in your pajamas : that's one thing i dont wanna be caught dead in....
Kept a secret from everyone : duh
Cried during a movie : haha. yeah.. lilo and stitch
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff : huh. err.... no?
Planned your week based on the TV Guide : nope.
Been on stage : yeah.
Been to New York : nope
Been to California : why all america states?
Hawaii : NO NO NO.
China : not my type.
Canada : no
Europe : no.
Asia : thailand. haha. err..... sentosa?
South America : nah. no money
Wished you were the opposite sex : haha yeah! when i have my barbeque sauce.
What time is it now? : 2341
Apples or bananas? : apples
Blue or red? : red
Walmart or target? : target
Spring or Fall? : spring
What are you gonna do after you finish this? : err... dont know? sleep?
What was the last meal you ate? : bread...
Last noise you heard? : mother banging things in the kitchen
Last smell you sniffed? : hmm... my towel?
Last time you went out of state/province? : never.
FRIENDSHIP/LOVE
Do you believe in love at first sight? :yeah
Do you want children one day & if so, how? : no way man. they're a buncha headaches...
Most important thing to you in a friendship is : trust.
Other Info
Criminal record? : err. school black record?
Do you speak any other languages? : english.. chinese... dialects. few jap words.
Last book you read : err.. magazine
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom? : my bed! my smelly bolster!
Thing you dislike about yourself the most : weight! and my legs....
Worst feeling in the world : loneliness.
Who you love : everyone who likes me.
Who you miss : her
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11:36:00 PM
Alrights. my blog skin's done. haha. changed jac's one too... not sure if she like it... yeah. Anyway, didn't go school today. o's results out. read from becca blog's that pl did real well.. 99.1% passes. dont know how many girls with 6 distinctions. the cool thing is that 30% of last year's normal a peeps made it to jc! WHoo!!! See.... dont look down on us. Ha! Yay!! Remembered last year when pl did well for o's the school gave us a day off.. keeping my fingers cross that something similar will happen this year. Maybe a week off? Haha. Bullshit man... a week off. Day dream only then will have. Haha. Grams just say what... i sometimes eat sometimes dont eat... that's why i look so pale. Whatever. I got eat. Just that I eat crap food. HAha. I dont take rice. Did take it today... yeah. On diet, say. I'm fat, fat, fat.
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5:24:00 PM
Thursday, February 26, 2004
Yoyoyo. got home early from school today. Got jac's cousie to sign me out. Poundering over whether i should go school tomorrow.. Oh.. saw grace wong this morning. Think it's her. Every detail fits her perfectly. Tomorrow o's results. Yeah.. that's why i dont know if i should go.. kekeke. I suck. wrote fat koh an apology letter with the help of lotsa peeps. Haha. Thanks, pals. guess i'll still be going to do it personally. But then again.. i suppose she'll still slam me with dc[s].. urgh. teachers. the all time hate-o-meter toppers. they suck. going on sunday instead saturday.. Well, well. the news of me scolding my teacher spreads like wild fire say. My, my. Calista knows about it.. 3d1 too. Oh man.. soon, the whole school will know say. How nice. By the way, i dont have a history of bringing the teachers down.. in public. Yeah.. I'm good, always been. Maybe one day.. i'll come with a parang. Haha. But say, i want the old me back.. the good o'amanda. look at my life now say, all fucked up. a different poop pops up everyday.. man, dont know how long i can take this.. suppose one day.. i really break down. who's gonna be there? you? how funny. you dont even care man.. haiyo. just read someone's blog.... he's gay?! dunno laaaaa... cant be bothered. aint it the same with lesbians. haha. do i look like i care? noooo. i dont. alrights. elsie got home early too. almost half the class. jac got first, me.. bon, jasmine, corinne, nana.. elsie. seven of us say. Whoa. record breaking class. haha. =) there seems to be lots of death around recently.. my father's side granddad.. bon's granny.. now, elsie's granddaddy.. man. depressing say. i smell it. sigh. god's cruel aint he? how many prayers you sent above never got an answer? five maybe? or more? he's busy? he makes time for everyone!.. they say. how true is that statement. or maybe that wasn't even a statement. question? the knots in my heart needs to be undone. but i kept weaving and weaving.. till it became one complicated big knot. i told you, my life's in a mess. and i promised to sweep memoirs of her under carpets. alrights.. gotta get my blog skin done and jac's one as well... yeah. so, i'll meet you with a totally new look.. soon, i hope ;) Peace out.
//Hearsay - the way to your love
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7:57:00 PM
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
Yay!! My archives are done! Whoo!
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6:11:00 PM
Aiyo... didn't go school today. Cause wasn't feeling well.. on the other hand, didnt feel like going to school. Damn tired.
I just fucking screwed up my blog. Argh.... my archives are gone.. cant remember where to get the code le...... Bleah. Irritating sia. If it wasn't for the explorer error thingy. Nothing would have gone wrong say. Sickening. Urgh.
Seems like nothing's going right. Everyday, a different kinda shit poops up say. This sucks man.. So fucked up man.
And jaclyn hung up on me just now.. that toopid girl. Wahahah. She did the same thing yesterday. Bandung la she.
Alrights, short entry today. Got nothing to blog. Gotta go do my archives now..
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5:36:00 PM
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
Superstar by jamelia totally rawks man. makes me feel like dancing. "i dont know what it is.. that makes me feel like this. I dont know who you are. but you must be some kinda super star..." Hate toxic sia. Dont ask me why. Just dont like the way it goes. Yeah, yeah. Okay. not sure if got dc yet. Was suppose to apologise to that fat koh. man, tomorrow got her lesson and she totally sucks. Whatever suckified stuff she's teaching, i dont understand. Lalala~ Okay, enough about her. She makes my blood boil.. man, i'm getting old. And that Jaclyn kept nagging and nagging today. Cant stand it when people nag. It totally sucks. And mrs jacob came into class today. Dont know what happened.. she just starting scolding us. Saying dont think she's scared of us. If we wanna challenge her.. take her on. Wo.... okay. Thought she had pms or something. Turns out to be that elsie showing her attitude. Yeah, yeah. Whatever it is. I think mrs jacbob's not as bad as you think she is. but.. her daughter sucks. i dont like her. Haha. Anyway, i actually passed my social studies test man.. didn't even study. mrs jacob gave me full marks for the first question.. she thought it was really good. Whoo~ I rawk. Got 9 over 15 at first. But later she added 2 marks. That makes me the highest in class. Yeah. Amanda rawks. Haha. I know I can be what I wanna be. If I work hard at it.. I'll be where I wanna be. Went home with Char today. Yeah.. talk lotsa crap. Haha. Cool..
//nas-i can
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6:14:00 PM
Monday, February 23, 2004
I suck man. Big time. Tummy pain..... Very. Sucks. Everything totally sucks lor. My one and only name tag's with LENA KOH and she sucks. Go suck your father's dick la. So fat no wonder no one want you. Today she got pms ar. I oso never do anything and she make me stay back after class just to find trouble with me. What the hell. The outcome? Detention class. Fuck her man. Noooo.... I dont wanna fuck her. Maybe some old and frail man would. But, not me. No regrets man. Dc, here I come. Whoo~ Defience? It's my turn now. Guess she always thought I was the good ones. Listening attentively to her lessons. Ha! She's wrong. Since last year when she first came in, didn't have the liking for her. Basically, her voice. Then, her dressing. Man. She totally sucks. Her voice is like....... err. So soft? Even my cousin's louder than her. And man, she's huge. Haha. And the way she runs..? She think she still small kid. yeah.. I'm fat too so I dare to say her. I hate her. She spoilt my clean record from last year on. They always say the sec three batch, be it whatever year, is always the worst. Yeah, yeah. I suppose so. Haha. Anyway, enough bout that fat koh. I passed my chi-na test!! Woot! Got 73.5 over 100. Haha. Jac actually got higher than me man. Yeah. She's a smarty ass. Finally, my song's downloading. Yuen damn super can. She got like 8/100? Haha. But well, suppose I did well yea? Didn't really mug. Studied only during recess. damnit. My fuck band on my leg got confiskated. Wanna get some more this coming sat. Getting mei mei some white ones. 2 for her and 1 for Zu. Yeah. So she'll stop bugging me in the morning for the white one.. Haha. That's should do it. And from this day forth, I swear to hate fat Koh for as long as I'm in pl. She sucks. And I'm sssssoooo scared of her. She's sacarstic. Man, that sucks. Trying to get into our good books? Try harder. No matter how hard she tries, she'll never succeed. Cause we dont like sucky people man. And if she's in for alpha camp, I'm out. She sucks, that's all I know. I cant hear her. She's sucks. La la la~
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3:53:00 PM
Sunday, February 22, 2004
This sucks. There's this ah-siao singing "Happy birthday to you..~" on karaoke. Okay, alrights. Hey.... friendster's noticeably faster. That's cool. =) Manda told me on friday that this shitified arsehole got two tix to mtv asia awards.. but he didn't go and refused to give those tix away. Gawd, that guy ought to be shot. He sucks. Like I said, everything sucks.. yea? School sucks like, totally. Especially pl. But....... bo bian. Need to study. Sighs. Why did I get myself into this shit. Haven completed my lit. Argh, it sucks. Literature sucks. If it wasn't for essays, I'm all out for literature. And mummy said something about dinish getting into poly. Results out this friday, I suppose. Not that I look down on a certain someone. But tell me about talking big. Heellllloooo? Look who's talking. Like I said, it sucks. Been feeling sucky man. Urgh.. monday. It sucks. Got a test on friday and a quiz on tuesday. I have a premonition: Gonna flunk this test like no one's business. And why am I listening to an old song? "Let it be...." Alrights, getting real crappy here. Maybe I should hit church service sometime soon... Yeah. Getting cranky. Cant wait for the march school break. Going for some tanning! Whoot! Getting some sun is good for your skin. Yeah. Talked to michelle on msn yesterday. Yep. Nothing much. Just some usual stuff. Save me, I feel sucky.
Backstreet Boys - Spanish eyes
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7:48:00 PM
Friday, February 20, 2004
Argh~!!! What the fark. Deleted the whole chunk of crap I typed just now. Okay.
My excitment was drowned with disappointments man. It sucks! LaSalle toally suck man. Was really really turned off. Looked like some old jail house. Cant imagine being locked inside a jail house. The working area's sooo small. The fine arts corner's worse than PL's art room. Totally sucks. My mind is set. No lasalle for me. But the student helpers' shirt was really so damn cool. Haha. Alrights. Becca funny say. She first time see ah gua. Haha. Okay. Saw this really gayish guy with orange hair. Haha. He's from tv. Okays. Waved at him when we were on the bus.. he waved back. Haha. So funny. Then, he blew kisses. So I blow back la. So cute.... Hees. yeah. Guess that was the only interesting thing I saw. Becca agree? Hehs. Oh..... got this one of a kind, super artistic chocolate from an art school. Cruchie~ Super melted. It was like..... chocolate juice? Haha. Oh.... another thing I enjoyed was slacking and moving to the music. Haha. Was dancing on my way out of the fashion design room. Mei mei say mrs.ong stared at me. I mean..... dont tell me you hear music..you wont move to it. Man, I love dancing. Yeahs. My ah bu so cute.. Aiyo. Haha. She's got so many kids. Like, me, yuen, becca, winnie, mei hui, pui.. six of us plus one maid:Sha. What the hell. My pts is my ah bu's maid......?! Haha. Met prissy daddy in the hall. Yeah. Watched the table tennis thingy for awhile. Didnt understand a single shit. So left cause it was b-o-r-i-n-g. Yep. Got home late. Regretted going to Lasalle and waste time. Sucks. You've gotta get a life, man. "Hey mama, get on the floor and move ya booty mama."
Miss Ho rocks man. She actually let us eat in class.. sweets la. But cannot let her see. And on wednesday, got this after school homework thingy. Can eat too~ Whoo~! She rocks man. Hated her like shit in sec one cause she scolded me for gb. But changed my perspective of her. I like her. And besides, we're both ms Ho. Haha
//Justin Timberlake - Cry me a river
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8:42:00 PM
Thursday, February 19, 2004
Reached home early today. Wow. Suprising. Sia la. These few days keep meeting Eunice. Yesterday saw her.... today saw her again. At town with dont know who. Went town.. bought some fuck bands. Black, white, pink, orange.. red, blue and green. Yay~ Tomorrow going lasalle. Will be back late again... Was sun tanning with Daddy yesterday.. Nope. Not much difference. Yeps.
Oh man.... Mr tang saw my cuts. =/ I'm so busted. Keeping my fingers cross. Hope he doesn't report it to ms.ho or I'm boiled man. Cut it like two days ago... Not many peeps knew.... Didn't spoke a word about it. Leen thought it was chio... Haha. Prissy daddy and alicia asked why yesterday at the track. Said I drew it. Haha. Alrights, stop lying Amanda. You're sucha bastard. Dont want people to know......... that's why I didn't say anything when you guys asked why I cut. Dont want you people to feel that I'm just attracting attention. Pui carved.. thought she was really against this kinda thing. She was really neat... Haha. Alrights. Amanda Samantha Jamie Ho signing off~ Peace out. Haha. Christina rawks~ Woa..... Chinese lesson today super fun. Haha. Nana went to swith the player to fm radio cause yuen ask her to.... Then when it was on, su lao shi was staring at her and before she could say anything... Nana ran off. Funny sia. Lao shi wasn't angry. In fact, she was laughing. Haha. Christina rawks! I love her man.. She's so funny.
//Richard Marcx - At the begining
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6:46:00 PM
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
Cant believe it man... I'm using cable and still experiencing lag.... Urgh. Alrights. Stayed back today. Again.. yep. Got a new name~ how interesting. First, Jamie.. then today.. SAMANTHA. Wadda hell. Been talking to her recently and she still cant get my name right. That bastard. Okay. Recess was hell on funny. Mei mei treated me to sandwich.. She got herself one too. Then....... ate one piece. She told Bon to eat her other piece cause she dont want it. Uh-huh. Okay.. Was reading the mag and eating my tuna sandwich.. Finished one piece, reached for the other to find that it was gone. Was like "Where's my sandwich?!" Mei mei took it. Bastard. Shouted across the canteen.. "Mei mei~ You bastard. Took my sandwich!!" She still blur blur.. Huh... thought it was mine. She forgot that she gave hers to Bon who in turn gave it to Fishy and she happily ate it up. Wha.. damn funny can. Should have seen. Missed out on something good. Alrights. That toopid Azilah............. bastard. Squeeze my shoulder. Pain sia.. EEeeeeee-di-oooootttt. Always bully me one.......! Argh. Wanted to say she has no right to bully me cause she younger than me. Haha. But. The fact is that she's older. Haha. She's 17 if I didn't remember wrongly. Remembered how I didn't like her when she first came into pl. Haha. Funny. Sia la... Know what. They played bball during recess.. Then Dinosaur scored a basket... and shouted "PL all the way!" Sha was like crap lor. She get into so much trouble.. and got so many demerit points and still say pl all the way. Haha. Wo. Miss patience man. Haven seen her for so long..... wonder if she still wants her 'stead''s number.... I have it! Haha. Alrights. Got home real late... in actual fact.... it was only 6:20.. Yep. Met Eunice.. at bishan. Was really quiet at the bus stop... with fran and jamie. Didn't want to talk to Jamie. Okay. Maybe it was just me or it's all in my head.... Just didn't want to talk to them and was really really upset. Reason unknown. Jac didn't made it to first place.. guess she was really upset. Cried. First time sia.... her high jump not first. She got third. Jac.... relax ar.. dont sad.. Bandung's here. =) Okay. Was with pris daddy.. alicia... fran and pui before that. Haha. Alrights. Remembered how I lacked the confidence of "......." yep. But, haha, alicia said it was very.. cant remember the word. She wants to pinch it. Haha. Thanks man.. at least someone thought it was cute. =) And I ask her if I could pinch her neh neh. She say no.. she dont have.. Meaning.. She dont have neh neh. Haha. Didn't like her during my sec one and two years.. But find her okay. Haha. She's nice. Yeah... Met eunice at bishan. One thing! Her concern's for real. Hahah. Ah~ She's sucha bandung. Bleahs....
//Simple plan - Perfect
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10:34:00 PM
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
Been feeling this way since I got home. Since reading the letter. Since I got to know them. Since eons. Urgh. Have been questioning God.. alot. Dont tell me I'm wrong to do that. Cause I know you do it too. I reached out to face a world of uncertainties and discriminations. I didn't want that.. nobody wants it. But I've got it. Unwilling, unknowingly.. accepted it. That's life. It's never easy. And I dont like it. Maybe that's why she said not to read the bottom of the letter. You dont know how much I hate myself. Well, remembered Emily Jacob said something about the process of changing. It's all natural and we cant do nothing to change it. But one thing remains: the scars left behind after everything was done. And that pain can never be undone. It's not a beautiful world. Maybe I should just shut myself from everyone.... Who cries and feels the pain within. No one. Cause no one cares. Oh yes, I've got friends. But how many are really there when you need a shoulder or a hand when you're really tired and worn out? Once told myself to smile and carry on... I've got me and me alone. But to realise along the way that I really needed someone. Who can really understand? I'll smile... close my eyes and tell the world I'm really okay. I'll bury the hurt deep within so I'll be okay.. and your lamest friend you used to know. But I'm different each day.. Not always that laughing one you see by her friends. Been hit in that vulnerable spot just today. I took so much to overcome this. And you brought it all back. And I know... No one's perfect and I'm not too. I'm sorry that I'm not perfect. Cause I can never be. And because of this flaw.. it hurt me so badly... And since young, I tried to hide it. But I'm so sorry that you saw it and couldn't take it. I'll try not to let this bring me down. I know it'll one day. I might be gone when it does... and hope to be smiling and be proud of it.
//Jay Zhou - Gui Ji
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8:21:00 PM
Monday, February 16, 2004
Spanish eyes.. By the Backstreet Boys.
Old song... I know. And it makes me cry.
I dont know why.
There's intruders in mua's blog. Who are they?
You dont like my music..... that's your buisness. Not mine.
Why do I bother myself with insignificant breathing embryo that takes up much breathing space on this earth..?
Urgh.
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11:39:00 PM
Gonna change my blogskin ssssooooonnnn. I hope. -.- Yep. I hope. Soon. When I have the time. Argh. Slow.. I'm lagging. Irc's making me lag. Wadda hell. 4 more minutes. Waiting for the song. Why. Tell me why irc so many people using. Hai me lag like fuck. Whoa..... Lena's cup cake veh nice sia. Nice.. yummy. Okay. Wanted to cut monkey's hair today. Replied her letter. Nothing much happened. Was a super boring day. Two teachers blew up. Haha. Both science one some more. Having pms. Haha. Recieved V.day pressie from an unexpected person. Didnt expect her to give me. Just got to know her like a few days ago.. So yup. Returning?? Dont think so. Evil. Jamie owe me V.day pressie!! That toopid boy. Okay. Got a date with my stead tomorrow morning. Haha. 7 am, bus stop. Yeps. Scolded Goh wan zhen today. "scolded" She said something about our class peeps disturbing her. Was like Huh?! Do we even know her? NO.....~ Yep. Just counting on my lucky stars that she doesn't report to teachers. Dont want any trouble at the beginning of the year. I hate DCs and writing reports. Kept my record super clean last year.. hoping to do the same this year. I'm good girl. =) Yup, yup. Believe me, man. Stayed till 5.30 in school today. Flat face was on the phone. Fran said she was crying. So? So.. I dont know. Then eunice dont know why came and tell me she dont know what to say.. People's stead wanna break up. I was like.. Why tell me.. what can I do right? Break then break lor. Like I can stop it from happening. I'm NOT God. Haha. Alrights. I was being a lil mean. First time see Eunice so concerned. Yeppers. Feel like puking. Terrible sia. Still counting on ya, lucky stars. You should know what I mean =)
//Stacie Orrico - More to life
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8:11:00 PM
Saturday, February 14, 2004
*runs around screaming..*Ah!! Friendster's crazy!! Okay, okays. Went to bishan with mummy today. Got sha and fran something for v day. One my stead, the other my pts.. so hafta get them something to mark this special day. This will be our third year together for me and sha. Haha. Me and fran broke up over a sweet I think. And got back. Lame, I know. Bought the big teddy!! Yay! And the black eye peas cd! Whoo~ Wanted to go for the mtv asia awards which is today. But. Hai. Alrights. Got two friend requests today. Met Charlotte at bishan in U2. Nope not that charlotte.. Charlotte Chia I think. She's Alicia's friend. Got to know her in primary school. Wow. After I change so much physically... she still regconise me. Haha. Cool. Me and Pauline okay le.... Haha. She's at east coast. Dont know if she's back yet. Complained that it was bored. She was with Vivian and this other guy. Okays. Wanted to go orchard this afternoon. But.... No one replied my msg except Fishy and Bon. Argh. Okay. Slimmer. Angry makes one old. Pulled a arm muscle. Sucks. It's painful.. obviously. Downloading songs and waiting for it to finish. Okay. Just forgot what I wanted to type. Urgh..... Hate it when things go this way. Got stm. Meaning.. Short Term Memory. Is there a cure for this? Remembered how I loved memory games when I was younger. My memory was superp. Till I hit the old age. Boo hoo. Always played the flinstones' memory game whenever I stepped into the arcade. Yeppers. Now.. I think I suck at it. And Leen~ I found the lyrics to the Khia song. Haha. I won. Peace off. Gonna go out with leen next sat to get the skirt. Need to msg evan too.... Eileen wants to go out with her. Yep. Gonna go leave a testi for Michelly. She wrote one for mua. So I'll be nice and return it. Cheers! What a good girl I am. =) Cant wait for monday to come.... Though I hafta wake up early for school...
//50 cents - Pimp
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9:39:00 PM
Friday, February 13, 2004
I llllllluuuuuurrrrvvvveeeeee today! Whoo~ Haha. Alrights. Happy Valentines' Day. The toopid balloons burst-ed. twrice. So I gave up. Gave them an deflated balloon. Nope. Didn't give everyone. Recieved lotsa stuff. Okay. At least it's better than last year cause last year... I received lots of sweets and chocolates. This year.. not alot. This year they gave stuff. As in STUFF. Geddit? Didn't recieve my sunflower!! Bon wasn't here. Okay. So received 3 roses in all... 2 pink and 1 red. And lots of other pretty stuff. Haha. Gonna get something else for my stead and pts. Fishy and Far(equals sha). Threw away three chocolates.. melted like fuck. So threw them away. No choice la... Today was the best. Well, the lower sec peeps dont seem to celebrate V. day. Jamie Chung owe me pressie! Alrights. She 'gave' me one.. The glow band. Me and Sha bought the last three. She took two and I took one. Then.. Jamie came over to our table in the canteen.. Dont know what happened.. Jac got this ORANGE glow band from her.. Then I screamed that I want the pink and green one. I got it~! Haha. Nice sia. I want the orange one too.... Okay. Never mind. Couldn't get the colors we wanted cause the fucking sa-m-pa-ed sec ones bought sssssoooooo many. Shitified. Haha. Anyway. Today was a real enjoyable day. Yep. Talked to Mindy.. Beck's twinnie.... Asked me to fold star but her straw lan already.. Then asked her go find pau. To do.. Cause was rushing..
Went to tp.. like I said. Meet this ex-pl lite. She's in tp. Haha. Received this style racer back and a free copy of 8 days mag. Tp is so huge and cool sia. Didn't know Yuan Li interested to study that poly. Cindy also. One thing I can confirm.. alot of pl lites wanna go that school. Yep. Upon reaching the poly. Me and sha had gone mad. Haha. We were like laughing and laughing. Non-stop. Till we left tp and went up the bus... we were still laughing. Like mad dogs. Hee. Dont know how we ended up talking about black forest. Haha. Meaning the chee bye hair. Talked about raja's. Then on our way to the bus stop... Sha said black forest wrongly. Called it rain forest. Then, me and her started laughing again. About? Cause I said when she pee... then it become rain forest. We were laughing and laughing except Jacintha. Laugh and laugh non-stop. Had the laughing diease. And we were dissing PL from our way there all the way till we left the place. Diss and diss non-stop. Haha. Made this cheer for them.. Tp peeps like robots sia. One perosn will say.. "TP say Bye~" then they will response "bye~" Like robots sia. Haha. So anyway.. Was recalling the 1g'02 cheer during camp. And thought of one to bring pl down. Here goes nothing:
What is the banner in the drain called?
PL!
Who are the losers of the field?
PL!
Who dares to mess with them will be champions,
who dares to mess with them will be champions.
Na~ Na~ Na~
PL sucks!
Haha. Cool..... Love dissing PL. Sha and me hate PL to the core of the earth sia. Argh.. Sucky school. I like this day.. Friday the 13th which happens to be today.
till today.. I wonder why she's not mine all that I've done. Where is she.. and God, please answer me.
//Khia - My neck, my back
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7:36:00 PM
Thursday, February 12, 2004
Ah.............!! So tired. Argh. Played captain's ball with the sec ones. Won.. of course =) 11 to 3. But two out of their three goals cheated de.. Sickening. And I dont like the class that played with us. I dont like sec ones. Well, except some I suppose. Haha. Alrights. I'm really, really, really tired. Ran alot today.... 5 rounds of the 1500m. Cheated. Haha. Sprint my heart out.. didn't really do my best. Should be able to go faster for the relay. Third runner so not so bad. Was leading. =) First time sia... Very happy. Got third. *Crosses finger* Really really hope to get into da finals. But even if we dont, I'm happy. We were third. Not bad for lane six. Cause normally lane six peeps running in it.. usually comes in the last few. So we were not bad. I must say.. Eunice very fast sia! I was counting the 9 steppings for her and when I finished and on my way back.. she was reaching me already. Haha. She's one fast freak. And jac they all who were watching us run.. said I was leading..! Whoo~ and was kinda fast too. Till the back where I slowed down cause I was waiting for sha to start off..... Haha. My passing to sha sucks man. Guess I screwed it all up. Yuen and Eunice saw it too.... Argh. But alrights, they said I did a good job. Good run, I suppose. So.. I was okay. At least they didn't blame me for the blunder I made. Kept telling them I was so freaking nervous lor.. Say what.. I might be the slowest there.. blah blah blah.. Then.. turned out that I was the fastest. Wha. I v. happy can. Walked back to where they were and all said "Good run". So please with myself. =) *beams*It was all because of Eunice. She kept pressurising me. Say what.. "Must run ar. Fast. Try your best". She pushed me.. suppose that helped abit. Our team rawks! Oh yeah baby. Ran the 1500 for the house. Mrs Tee was so pleased. Cause it wasn't complusory for Leerians to run. But we did anyway. So she gave as this green file. So cute can..... Haha. Very happy with the relay thingy. But very tired...
Going tp tomorrow on our own. Cant wait sia... Tp and Lasalle.. my dream school. Next fiday to lasalle. Not confirm though.
Next monday, Sha, Pauline and Jamie running 800m.. Watching Jac do high jump. That girl can jump sia. She's gonna grab the gold! She's my kuku bandung. Haha. Me, fran, Mei hui, Jac, pui forming cheerleading team for Jamie. Slogan reading: Jamie Chung, the stupid monkey. She really look like monkey. Haha. Feeling so thirsty. Drink so much water le.... Sha can do 800.. if she tries hard. I.. cant. I suck at long distance. Better at short. But two hundred......... cant really do fast. 100m can.. not really good though. I pray that we get into finals sia.... Our team rawks. yeah.. and I need to bathe. I stink =P
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8:23:00 PM
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
Tired....... Very tired. Why? No idea myself. Did some sprints today during PE. Before that ran 4 or 3 rounds. I passed my chem!! Thought I would fail like there's no tomorrow.. Sha got the highest. 20.5 Wo. Haha. I passed anyway. As long as I pass, I cant be bothered about the marks. Yeah. So, no chem remedial for mua. I'm so freaking happy. Stayed back till 5 plus with yuen, sha, pui, mat, eunice, pris.. watched and somehow.. cheer for the peeps doing the heats. Vandalised Manda's leg today~! Yay!! Haha. Slept during chapel. One of the best sleeps I had during school. Was so tired.. Even now. Been running and walking.. alot. Sat at the track for long while.. Decided to get up to class to get our bags. Got stopped by sandra ang for not wearing name tags. Then, this sec one or two girl approached her talking about the 1500m mass. Took this opportunity to get away from her. Me, sha and pui ran all the way up. And they were laughing at how I ran..... -.-|| I ran...... sideways according to them. Been running like for a while ready. Sha tried to copy. But did not succeed. This proves my style is cool and un-copy-a-ble. Yeah. But quite fun la.. running like that. Makes me go faster. Okay, back to heats. Went to watched cause we supposed yuen was there cause ah-zi-la was there. DOnt laugh. I dont know how to spell her name. Funny~ Okay. We went to cheer her on. Did some real dumb things. Sat down later and talked abit. Talked about dancing.. She saw me and yuenzamania dancing during PE.. Wha........ So pai seh. Waddahell. Kept insisiting that I wasn't me... cause she wanted me to dance. And no... I didn't dance. Haha. Asked everyone who wanted sweet and fadli happily took it. -.- I still thinks Ah-zeeeeeee-la sounds better. She called me something ending with "bi" Dont know what. Cant remember. Oh.. Baby. I was like huh? Baby? Then Sha explained.. She say I very small so she call me that. Whahaha. That's like funny. Me.. small? Dont quite fit the criterial. <- spelling error, I know. [Okay.. some Terry person just talked to me in msn.. who da hell is that?!] Heex........ Anyway. The whole baby thing went on. She was about to go off.... And said something sounded like "ni" or "bi" I dont know.. and said bye.. showing that face. Argh. Erase that baby thingy off!! Alright, I've got heats tomorrow and I dont wanna run.....!! Big jie jie say must try our best. They've got a slacker within the team. Yuen's 1st runner.. Eunice, second... Me, third. Sha, obviously, last. Tension~ baby...... Dont wanna run..........!!!! But cannot slack la. Try me best. Might be slower or abit faster than the snail.. I'll try. *Crosses fingers... Wish me all the energy and speed~!
One last thing. Ah-zeeeeee-la run like ultra-man.. very fast. Super straight. Gorilla run 1500, can you believe it...... Haha. I'm a happy person.. for today.
//Daniel Bedingfield - If you're not the one
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11:40:00 PM
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
Argh... Darn the fucking setup. It's taking ssssoooooooo looooonnnnngggggg! It's making everything go so sssslllllloooooooowwwwww. Argh.
Nothing much happened. Had geog test which I suppose I will flung big time and social studies test which question three was a lil incomplete. Didn't have time lah. Cant write when I'm under huge pressure where everyone finished and you haven't. Argh. Sat with leen for chinese.. Had itchy nose........ leaked and leaked. Lao shi said it was very er xin. Haha. Me and leen were laughing and laughing leaving the whole class wondering why. Read the ke out loud without stopping. Leen vandalised my leg~! Drew her ugly la bi xiao xin.... and her ham chi peng face man.. I drew on her hand.. "Amanda was here on 100204" and got her scolded for drawing on her hand. Haha. Something super exciting happened during math. I actually did a question by myself and got it correct. Yay! I love math.... for the first time. It gives me headaches. And I get real irritated if I dont understand something and no one explains it the way I wanna know things.... Geddit? Going TP on friday!! Ahhh... Excited!! TP....... my dream school. They're having an open house from 12-14Feb. So heading down with Sha and 3d1 on friday. Tagging along to breathe the air from my dream school. Haha. Yeah. Stayed back a little while today. Wanted to stay with Bon and wait till she finished her duty. Had nothing to do and was bored... as usual. But turns out that the teachers were on a course and the person told her there's nothing to do so me and her happily took the 62 and found that they changed their route. Had to walk two bustops just to get to heartland. Stupid us. Went to heartland to find poser and the rest. Manda told me about the bung inside yoshi. Man... that one bung ar? Eeeeeeewwwwww. Ah bung bu cheng gong. So girly! Look at the way she's sitting. Pukes. I realise Cerlyn cant pronouce chinese words properly..... Haha. Kept correcting her. =P
Today... was a pleasent day. Not heading to Toa Payoh today. Going on thursday. Cause thursday staying back for heats..... Was in the hall for briefing and I kept saying "I dont wanna run! I'm slower than a snail.......!" Sha went... "Yeah right. That's a lie!" And we started laughing. Bleahs. Lamers are we. Lamers rules! Yeah! Peace.
Girls dont like boys. Girls like cars and money~!
//Eminem - Sing for the moment
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5:58:00 PM
Monday, February 09, 2004
Yay! I'm home! Yuen, me, sha went to centre point cause I wanted to check the balloons thingy.. Man. It cost 17.95. Wtf. So expensive. Their balloons made of gold. We ate at the Graffiti Cafe. Drew on the table. Spent.. 4+1.50+3=8.50. I'm left with 50cents for the rest of the week. How amazing. I didn't know I had 9 bucks with me. All the while I thought I had only 8. Haha. Okay. Took lotsa pictures. Nope. No neos. Cause didn't have money. Yep. Took pics in the train, on the bus.. On the escalator... In the centre point lift. Where else? No more. The one in the lift was cool.. Looked like we were in a disco or something. We all have a fetish about taking pictures. if someone brought a camera.. We'll take like whao.. Have 8 testis to approve..... And 7 of them came from Fishy!! All the same de. Haha. Stupid gerl.
Gonna go tp on friday! Not confirmed yet though.. just getting a lil too excited.
Okay. Forgot what I wanted to say. Oh. Had the health check today. Choy. Nothing ones. Just bend down and check backbone.. Thought they wanted to see our boobies' growth. Make me oh so excited. =) Anyway, have to go for mmr soon... Hate injections!! Then, me and sha waited for yuen.. And winnie, jasmine, cindy, patrina, sha, me and yuen sat down and talk cause we wanted to miss geog lesson. And we did. She didn't come to class. Hmm.. found out that Cindy and Patrina were really nice to talk to.. Talked about fake and real tattoos and piercing. They're going to kbox on Saturday. Asked if I wanna join them. Didn't give them an answer cause.. me and kbox...... dont quite fit together. Yeah. There's social studies tomorrow. It's so boring. Math remedial and gonna ask my mum out tomorrow... Yeah. To get balloons. The cheap one. Sha checked it out. Hmm... Shall get that. =) Big news!! I talked to Pauline today during the health check and bio.. she looked eager to talk to me or was it all in my head...?
//Backstreet Boys - How Did I Fall In Love With You
Remeber when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone
Those days are gone, and I want so much
The night islong and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight
What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble
I cannot pretend that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight
What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know
I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life
What can I do to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
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5:37:00 PM
Went in search of lollies today just to realised it was closed for the day. How interesting. Begin the day late today. Felt like I missed almost half the day. Hate that feeling. Didn't do much. Broke the personal record of walking from Raffles to Tanjong Pagar. Hell yo, the place was like a ghost town. Walked across the road like it was my father's. Gonna go to Novena Sq tomorrow.. in search of pink heart shaped balloons. If i cant find the lollies. =) Need a pump for the balloon. Cant possibly blow it myself. I'll die. Hope she remembers =) Guess I regretted taking Art. Cant draw for Christ's sake. Always regretting after making a decision. Fickle minded? Yes, I am. No denial cause denial means admitting. And no, I wont deny. Once did and got hurt real bad. And I stopped. Protective of myself. Falling and hurting. What is God doing with me? Dependent on love? Maybe. Hopeless believer in fate? Hell on. Cant believe I'm actually saying all these crap. Have faith and it will move moutains.. I said that before, didn't I? Heard it during morning assembly. One of the meaningful ones.. one of which I actually remembered. Have faith, have faith, have faith.. they always say. I did. But look at me now. I'm not a strong believer in God. I do.. pray. And left my well kept secrets with him. Guess I crap just too much and he had it with me.. left me and kept me waiting. Mdm Ho said: "You girls blame everyone but yourselves" True, very true. The school theme song 2003 said.. "There is a candle in every soul.." My frizzled out silently. I needed light. So shine on me... And I feel that this is getting very depressive and crappy.. Set me on fire and let me die.
http://www.tz008.com/love.htm
//Kathy Triccoli - Go light your world
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12:31:00 AM
Saturday, February 07, 2004
Hearing:
Just got home from school not long ago.. Had the field trip today. Went to chinatown.. The place's..... boring. My first time there though. Drew the shop houses which looked like shit. And some chinese lanterns. Got a chance to go to Melacca... but forfeited it cause if I go.... not only I have to pay 42 bucks and draw too. Argh. Hate drawing cause my drawing sux! Was starving..... Ong bring us to that Killiney Kopitiam got nothing to eat de..... their kaya toast sucks. I prefer Ya Kun's. So....... didn't eat...... just drank milo. Stayed back for a little while... Waited for Fran and Winnie...
Went to bishan after that... had my lunch. Mos! Went there in two separate buses. Before getting up the bus.. Bon was talking on the phone... then she told me that her.. think it's her granny... died at one plus. I was like.. Huh?! You joking ar... Why so sudden...
So scary can..... that someone can just 'go' like that.
Took 8 beam.... the seven of us.... bon didn't want to take. So yar.... Oh. Bought tissues from this old ah ma.... she so poor thing can... Anyway only one buck so I buy lorx. Did a good deed today =) feel so proud. =))))
Now I'm home.... tired.
Today.. wasn't a very bad day for me.... =)
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5:31:00 PM
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
Hearing:
Stayed back today.... Got home not long ago. Had Mac's for lunch. God damned. The heartland Mac was infested with PL lites. Argh.........
Had to sit outside and bear with the chlorine smell. Stinks sia...
And now.... friendster's taking so freaking long! I hate friendster. I think the webmaster needs to do something to the server BADLY. Friendster stinks.
Okay...
Then.....
Spend the rest of the day in class... Fran and Sulynn.. Wont touch on that. Cause.....
It's none of my buisness =P
And I still miss her so....
They always say.... Believe in God and that faith can move mountains.
Crap.
Save me all these heart break. Save me all these tears. And Lord, I pray with all my heart and soul..... to see her once again and I'll be smiling once again.
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6:36:00 PM
Sunday, February 29, 2004
I'm so irritated with my mom. Man.... she's behaving silly in her desperation to 'save' the wall. O.o?! She's painted the black part with dilluted white paint. What the hell....... okay. got no tv for the next three days. urgh. how am i gonna survive? cartoons!! they're gone for three days! man..... how bad can this get? okay okay. went out today. took neos. shall scan them later...... yeah. Urgh. went out with six peeps today. but....... seems like fran and company dont wanna go with us.. hmm. so sha me yuen walked on our own. so sad right? treat us like some alien like that. martherfarker. okay. never mind. got that toxic song stuck in my head!! used to hate that song.. haha. but after hearing it for a few times.. it's quite alright. yeah.. bought undies with yuen today. and a chain from perlini's. yep.. alright. i've decided. i shall get a mp3 player. yep.
//Limp bizkit - behind blue eyes
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Ahahaha. they go sua teng pray. i not going cause going out later. yep. now.. waiting for ma's limp bizkit song to finish.... yeah!
//Britney spears - toxic
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Saturday, February 28, 2004
What the fuxk man. Was doing the passport thingy online.. and guess what? the photo dont fit the size required. huh? all passport photos sama size wad... den they say waht must fit the image frame. was like. what the fuxk lorr. the frame is sssssoooooo big. scratch head man. by the time i enlarge the photo.. blurr diao le. urgh.
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Ah!! Just got home man... my legs feels like it's burning... Ahahahaha. Alrights. Had kfc. nope. no chicken. had the cheese fries and some wedges.. with a few mouthfuls of whipped potato.. Yeppers! Haha. got leen's pressie.. yeah. And rejoice! our plan to go out tomorrow is not flopped. haha. still going out with a buncha peeps. small gathering of the sec 2d1'03. yeah. man, i love them. haha. not that i dont love 3d2 but.. some peeps, i just wont go out with unless in school u.. they're just.. too lian la. not for me. haha. wanted to ask char out. but guess she'll feel left out. so.... yeah. haha. urgh. the burning sensation's still there. wtf man. yeah, yeah. the music on ma's blog rawks.. like totally. haha. didn't head for school on friday. lotsa tests awaits me upon my return man. suckified say! urgh.. exams, tests, exams, tests. man.. what is school all about man. just tell me something. i need the answer! i just simply suck. been updating nonsense everyday. no one reads these crap man. i suck.. so bad. haha. changed jac's blog skin.. like i said. not sure if she likes it. so.. jaclyn! tell your fellow bandung something! Dont make me feel guilty about changing your skin without permission! urgh!! need an answer!! Alrights. adios. chao. nighty.
//Gareth gates - anyone of us
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Friday, February 27, 2004
tore this from edith's blog. dated 261103. Haha.. here goes. it's kinda long winded. yeah..
MY
name : amanda
piercings : 5
tattoos : nopez..
height : 150
shoe size : 4
hair color: black?
siblings : 1 sista
LAST
movie you rented : i dont rent.
movie you bought : i dont buy.
song you listened to : now.. nothing. before that.. boyfriend
song that was stuck in your head : haha. boyfriend. haha
cd you bought : last bought? black eyed peas. they rawk.
cd you listened to : err... most recent.. the one i burned
person you've called : in the last 24 hours.. no one.
person that's called you : jaclyn
tv show you've watched : news. haha
person you were thinking of : her
DO
you have a crush on someone : yep. certainly do.
you wish you could live somewhere else : yeah. as a different person as well
you think about suicide : often
you believe in online dating : nope.
others find you attractive : eh.. no?
you want more piercings : yeah. absolutely.
you like cleaning : nope.
you like roller coasters : yeah.
you write in cursive or print : print. lit essays during exams... cursive.
FOR OR AGAINST
long distance relationships : against
using someone : for
suicide : for
killing people : against
teenage smoking : for
driving drunk : against
gay/lesbian relationships : for. obviously right..
soap operas : for! haha. i watch them.. =/
HAVE YOU
ever cried over a girl : yeah...
ever cried over a boy : err. no
ever lied to someone : always
ever been in a fist fight : err. yeah?
ever been arrested : yeah.. to the dm. haha
WHAT
shampoo do you use : pantenes.. is that how you spell it?
shoes do you wear : dolley.. err. sports.. err.. aiya. as long as it catches my eye, i buy it.. i wear it.
are you scared of : insects.reptiles.
NUMBER
of times I have been in love? :3
of times I have had my heart broken? : 3
of girls I have kissed? : haha. i'm not telling you.
of boys I have kissed?: eh... boys? err..
of girls I've slept (in a bed) with? : sista considered?
of boys I've slept (in a bed) with? : hmm...
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends : my mum. haha...
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? : lots. my name's just so so common..
of scars on my body? : truckloads
of things in my past that I regret? : lots
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
pretty : eh.... self-acclaimed chio bu. no la...
funny : funny? dont know.. you tell me.
hot : hot.. er.. hot?.. hmm..
friendly : well.. maybe?
amusing : haha... sort of.
ugly : see-able.
loveable : hmm.
caring : nope. absolutely not.
sweet : well... yeah?
dorky : nope. but pretty lame and weird
FAVORITE
5 letter word : fuck u.
actor/actress : Err....... i dont support any.
Candy : strawberry flavored lolly! aiya. every sweet also like as long as not la-la one. as in.. minty flavored
Cartoon : spongebob!
Cereal : eh... dont like cereal.
Chewing gum : prefer bubble gum
Color(s) : rainbow... haa. pink. black. red. white
Color nail polish : black
Day of week : saturday
Least fave day : every other day that i have to wake up early.
Flower : tulips.sun flowers
Jello flavor : peach! strawberry!
Jewelry : ear rings? bangles...
Special skills/talents: eh. i laugh till i cry? i can make my voice sound like im submerged in water... counted?
Summer/Winter : summer
Trampolines or swimming pools : trampolines!
PERSON WHO LAST.
Slept in your bed : me.
Saw you cry : me.
Made you cry : her.
You went to the movies with : my mum and sis
Yelled at you : eh. me? haha
Sent you an email : haven checked it in a long time. guess it's char.
Have you ever.
Said "I love you" and meant it? : yeah. lots. dont have to say it to that special someone.
Gone out in public in your pajamas : that's one thing i dont wanna be caught dead in....
Kept a secret from everyone : duh
Cried during a movie : haha. yeah.. lilo and stitch
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff : huh. err.... no?
Planned your week based on the TV Guide : nope.
Been on stage : yeah.
Been to New York : nope
Been to California : why all america states?
Hawaii : NO NO NO.
China : not my type.
Canada : no
Europe : no.
Asia : thailand. haha. err..... sentosa?
South America : nah. no money
Wished you were the opposite sex : haha yeah! when i have my barbeque sauce.
What time is it now? : 2341
Apples or bananas? : apples
Blue or red? : red
Walmart or target? : target
Spring or Fall? : spring
What are you gonna do after you finish this? : err... dont know? sleep?
What was the last meal you ate? : bread...
Last noise you heard? : mother banging things in the kitchen
Last smell you sniffed? : hmm... my towel?
Last time you went out of state/province? : never.
FRIENDSHIP/LOVE
Do you believe in love at first sight? :yeah
Do you want children one day & if so, how? : no way man. they're a buncha headaches...
Most important thing to you in a friendship is : trust.
Other Info
Criminal record? : err. school black record?
Do you speak any other languages? : english.. chinese... dialects. few jap words.
Last book you read : err.. magazine
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom? : my bed! my smelly bolster!
Thing you dislike about yourself the most : weight! and my legs....
Worst feeling in the world : loneliness.
Who you love : everyone who likes me.
Who you miss : her
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Alrights. my blog skin's done. haha. changed jac's one too... not sure if she like it... yeah. Anyway, didn't go school today. o's results out. read from becca blog's that pl did real well.. 99.1% passes. dont know how many girls with 6 distinctions. the cool thing is that 30% of last year's normal a peeps made it to jc! WHoo!!! See.... dont look down on us. Ha! Yay!! Remembered last year when pl did well for o's the school gave us a day off.. keeping my fingers cross that something similar will happen this year. Maybe a week off? Haha. Bullshit man... a week off. Day dream only then will have. Haha. Grams just say what... i sometimes eat sometimes dont eat... that's why i look so pale. Whatever. I got eat. Just that I eat crap food. HAha. I dont take rice. Did take it today... yeah. On diet, say. I'm fat, fat, fat.
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Thursday, February 26, 2004
Yoyoyo. got home early from school today. Got jac's cousie to sign me out. Poundering over whether i should go school tomorrow.. Oh.. saw grace wong this morning. Think it's her. Every detail fits her perfectly. Tomorrow o's results. Yeah.. that's why i dont know if i should go.. kekeke. I suck. wrote fat koh an apology letter with the help of lotsa peeps. Haha. Thanks, pals. guess i'll still be going to do it personally. But then again.. i suppose she'll still slam me with dc[s].. urgh. teachers. the all time hate-o-meter toppers. they suck. going on sunday instead saturday.. Well, well. the news of me scolding my teacher spreads like wild fire say. My, my. Calista knows about it.. 3d1 too. Oh man.. soon, the whole school will know say. How nice. By the way, i dont have a history of bringing the teachers down.. in public. Yeah.. I'm good, always been. Maybe one day.. i'll come with a parang. Haha. But say, i want the old me back.. the good o'amanda. look at my life now say, all fucked up. a different poop pops up everyday.. man, dont know how long i can take this.. suppose one day.. i really break down. who's gonna be there? you? how funny. you dont even care man.. haiyo. just read someone's blog.... he's gay?! dunno laaaaa... cant be bothered. aint it the same with lesbians. haha. do i look like i care? noooo. i dont. alrights. elsie got home early too. almost half the class. jac got first, me.. bon, jasmine, corinne, nana.. elsie. seven of us say. Whoa. record breaking class. haha. =) there seems to be lots of death around recently.. my father's side granddad.. bon's granny.. now, elsie's granddaddy.. man. depressing say. i smell it. sigh. god's cruel aint he? how many prayers you sent above never got an answer? five maybe? or more? he's busy? he makes time for everyone!.. they say. how true is that statement. or maybe that wasn't even a statement. question? the knots in my heart needs to be undone. but i kept weaving and weaving.. till it became one complicated big knot. i told you, my life's in a mess. and i promised to sweep memoirs of her under carpets. alrights.. gotta get my blog skin done and jac's one as well... yeah. so, i'll meet you with a totally new look.. soon, i hope ;) Peace out.
//Hearsay - the way to your love
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Wednesday, February 25, 2004
Yay!! My archives are done! Whoo!
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Aiyo... didn't go school today. Cause wasn't feeling well.. on the other hand, didnt feel like going to school. Damn tired.
I just fucking screwed up my blog. Argh.... my archives are gone.. cant remember where to get the code le...... Bleah. Irritating sia. If it wasn't for the explorer error thingy. Nothing would have gone wrong say. Sickening. Urgh.
Seems like nothing's going right. Everyday, a different kinda shit poops up say. This sucks man.. So fucked up man.
And jaclyn hung up on me just now.. that toopid girl. Wahahah. She did the same thing yesterday. Bandung la she.
Alrights, short entry today. Got nothing to blog. Gotta go do my archives now..
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Tuesday, February 24, 2004
Superstar by jamelia totally rawks man. makes me feel like dancing. "i dont know what it is.. that makes me feel like this. I dont know who you are. but you must be some kinda super star..." Hate toxic sia. Dont ask me why. Just dont like the way it goes. Yeah, yeah. Okay. not sure if got dc yet. Was suppose to apologise to that fat koh. man, tomorrow got her lesson and she totally sucks. Whatever suckified stuff she's teaching, i dont understand. Lalala~ Okay, enough about her. She makes my blood boil.. man, i'm getting old. And that Jaclyn kept nagging and nagging today. Cant stand it when people nag. It totally sucks. And mrs jacob came into class today. Dont know what happened.. she just starting scolding us. Saying dont think she's scared of us. If we wanna challenge her.. take her on. Wo.... okay. Thought she had pms or something. Turns out to be that elsie showing her attitude. Yeah, yeah. Whatever it is. I think mrs jacbob's not as bad as you think she is. but.. her daughter sucks. i dont like her. Haha. Anyway, i actually passed my social studies test man.. didn't even study. mrs jacob gave me full marks for the first question.. she thought it was really good. Whoo~ I rawk. Got 9 over 15 at first. But later she added 2 marks. That makes me the highest in class. Yeah. Amanda rawks. Haha. I know I can be what I wanna be. If I work hard at it.. I'll be where I wanna be. Went home with Char today. Yeah.. talk lotsa crap. Haha. Cool..
//nas-i can
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Monday, February 23, 2004
I suck man. Big time. Tummy pain..... Very. Sucks. Everything totally sucks lor. My one and only name tag's with LENA KOH and she sucks. Go suck your father's dick la. So fat no wonder no one want you. Today she got pms ar. I oso never do anything and she make me stay back after class just to find trouble with me. What the hell. The outcome? Detention class. Fuck her man. Noooo.... I dont wanna fuck her. Maybe some old and frail man would. But, not me. No regrets man. Dc, here I come. Whoo~ Defience? It's my turn now. Guess she always thought I was the good ones. Listening attentively to her lessons. Ha! She's wrong. Since last year when she first came in, didn't have the liking for her. Basically, her voice. Then, her dressing. Man. She totally sucks. Her voice is like....... err. So soft? Even my cousin's louder than her. And man, she's huge. Haha. And the way she runs..? She think she still small kid. yeah.. I'm fat too so I dare to say her. I hate her. She spoilt my clean record from last year on. They always say the sec three batch, be it whatever year, is always the worst. Yeah, yeah. I suppose so. Haha. Anyway, enough bout that fat koh. I passed my chi-na test!! Woot! Got 73.5 over 100. Haha. Jac actually got higher than me man. Yeah. She's a smarty ass. Finally, my song's downloading. Yuen damn super can. She got like 8/100? Haha. But well, suppose I did well yea? Didn't really mug. Studied only during recess. damnit. My fuck band on my leg got confiskated. Wanna get some more this coming sat. Getting mei mei some white ones. 2 for her and 1 for Zu. Yeah. So she'll stop bugging me in the morning for the white one.. Haha. That's should do it. And from this day forth, I swear to hate fat Koh for as long as I'm in pl. She sucks. And I'm sssssoooo scared of her. She's sacarstic. Man, that sucks. Trying to get into our good books? Try harder. No matter how hard she tries, she'll never succeed. Cause we dont like sucky people man. And if she's in for alpha camp, I'm out. She sucks, that's all I know. I cant hear her. She's sucks. La la la~
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Sunday, February 22, 2004
This sucks. There's this ah-siao singing "Happy birthday to you..~" on karaoke. Okay, alrights. Hey.... friendster's noticeably faster. That's cool. =) Manda told me on friday that this shitified arsehole got two tix to mtv asia awards.. but he didn't go and refused to give those tix away. Gawd, that guy ought to be shot. He sucks. Like I said, everything sucks.. yea? School sucks like, totally. Especially pl. But....... bo bian. Need to study. Sighs. Why did I get myself into this shit. Haven completed my lit. Argh, it sucks. Literature sucks. If it wasn't for essays, I'm all out for literature. And mummy said something about dinish getting into poly. Results out this friday, I suppose. Not that I look down on a certain someone. But tell me about talking big. Heellllloooo? Look who's talking. Like I said, it sucks. Been feeling sucky man. Urgh.. monday. It sucks. Got a test on friday and a quiz on tuesday. I have a premonition: Gonna flunk this test like no one's business. And why am I listening to an old song? "Let it be...." Alrights, getting real crappy here. Maybe I should hit church service sometime soon... Yeah. Getting cranky. Cant wait for the march school break. Going for some tanning! Whoot! Getting some sun is good for your skin. Yeah. Talked to michelle on msn yesterday. Yep. Nothing much. Just some usual stuff. Save me, I feel sucky.
Backstreet Boys - Spanish eyes
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Friday, February 20, 2004
Argh~!!! What the fark. Deleted the whole chunk of crap I typed just now. Okay.
My excitment was drowned with disappointments man. It sucks! LaSalle toally suck man. Was really really turned off. Looked like some old jail house. Cant imagine being locked inside a jail house. The working area's sooo small. The fine arts corner's worse than PL's art room. Totally sucks. My mind is set. No lasalle for me. But the student helpers' shirt was really so damn cool. Haha. Alrights. Becca funny say. She first time see ah gua. Haha. Okay. Saw this really gayish guy with orange hair. Haha. He's from tv. Okays. Waved at him when we were on the bus.. he waved back. Haha. So funny. Then, he blew kisses. So I blow back la. So cute.... Hees. yeah. Guess that was the only interesting thing I saw. Becca agree? Hehs. Oh..... got this one of a kind, super artistic chocolate from an art school. Cruchie~ Super melted. It was like..... chocolate juice? Haha. Oh.... another thing I enjoyed was slacking and moving to the music. Haha. Was dancing on my way out of the fashion design room. Mei mei say mrs.ong stared at me. I mean..... dont tell me you hear music..you wont move to it. Man, I love dancing. Yeahs. My ah bu so cute.. Aiyo. Haha. She's got so many kids. Like, me, yuen, becca, winnie, mei hui, pui.. six of us plus one maid:Sha. What the hell. My pts is my ah bu's maid......?! Haha. Met prissy daddy in the hall. Yeah. Watched the table tennis thingy for awhile. Didnt understand a single shit. So left cause it was b-o-r-i-n-g. Yep. Got home late. Regretted going to Lasalle and waste time. Sucks. You've gotta get a life, man. "Hey mama, get on the floor and move ya booty mama."
Miss Ho rocks man. She actually let us eat in class.. sweets la. But cannot let her see. And on wednesday, got this after school homework thingy. Can eat too~ Whoo~! She rocks man. Hated her like shit in sec one cause she scolded me for gb. But changed my perspective of her. I like her. And besides, we're both ms Ho. Haha
//Justin Timberlake - Cry me a river
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Thursday, February 19, 2004
Reached home early today. Wow. Suprising. Sia la. These few days keep meeting Eunice. Yesterday saw her.... today saw her again. At town with dont know who. Went town.. bought some fuck bands. Black, white, pink, orange.. red, blue and green. Yay~ Tomorrow going lasalle. Will be back late again... Was sun tanning with Daddy yesterday.. Nope. Not much difference. Yeps.
Oh man.... Mr tang saw my cuts. =/ I'm so busted. Keeping my fingers cross. Hope he doesn't report it to ms.ho or I'm boiled man. Cut it like two days ago... Not many peeps knew.... Didn't spoke a word about it. Leen thought it was chio... Haha. Prissy daddy and alicia asked why yesterday at the track. Said I drew it. Haha. Alrights, stop lying Amanda. You're sucha bastard. Dont want people to know......... that's why I didn't say anything when you guys asked why I cut. Dont want you people to feel that I'm just attracting attention. Pui carved.. thought she was really against this kinda thing. She was really neat... Haha. Alrights. Amanda Samantha Jamie Ho signing off~ Peace out. Haha. Christina rawks~ Woa..... Chinese lesson today super fun. Haha. Nana went to swith the player to fm radio cause yuen ask her to.... Then when it was on, su lao shi was staring at her and before she could say anything... Nana ran off. Funny sia. Lao shi wasn't angry. In fact, she was laughing. Haha. Christina rawks! I love her man.. She's so funny.
//Richard Marcx - At the begining
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Wednesday, February 18, 2004
Cant believe it man... I'm using cable and still experiencing lag.... Urgh. Alrights. Stayed back today. Again.. yep. Got a new name~ how interesting. First, Jamie.. then today.. SAMANTHA. Wadda hell. Been talking to her recently and she still cant get my name right. That bastard. Okay. Recess was hell on funny. Mei mei treated me to sandwich.. She got herself one too. Then....... ate one piece. She told Bon to eat her other piece cause she dont want it. Uh-huh. Okay.. Was reading the mag and eating my tuna sandwich.. Finished one piece, reached for the other to find that it was gone. Was like "Where's my sandwich?!" Mei mei took it. Bastard. Shouted across the canteen.. "Mei mei~ You bastard. Took my sandwich!!" She still blur blur.. Huh... thought it was mine. She forgot that she gave hers to Bon who in turn gave it to Fishy and she happily ate it up. Wha.. damn funny can. Should have seen. Missed out on something good. Alrights. That toopid Azilah............. bastard. Squeeze my shoulder. Pain sia.. EEeeeeee-di-oooootttt. Always bully me one.......! Argh. Wanted to say she has no right to bully me cause she younger than me. Haha. But. The fact is that she's older. Haha. She's 17 if I didn't remember wrongly. Remembered how I didn't like her when she first came into pl. Haha. Funny. Sia la... Know what. They played bball during recess.. Then Dinosaur scored a basket... and shouted "PL all the way!" Sha was like crap lor. She get into so much trouble.. and got so many demerit points and still say pl all the way. Haha. Wo. Miss patience man. Haven seen her for so long..... wonder if she still wants her 'stead''s number.... I have it! Haha. Alrights. Got home real late... in actual fact.... it was only 6:20.. Yep. Met Eunice.. at bishan. Was really quiet at the bus stop... with fran and jamie. Didn't want to talk to Jamie. Okay. Maybe it was just me or it's all in my head.... Just didn't want to talk to them and was really really upset. Reason unknown. Jac didn't made it to first place.. guess she was really upset. Cried. First time sia.... her high jump not first. She got third. Jac.... relax ar.. dont sad.. Bandung's here. =) Okay. Was with pris daddy.. alicia... fran and pui before that. Haha. Alrights. Remembered how I lacked the confidence of "......." yep. But, haha, alicia said it was very.. cant remember the word. She wants to pinch it. Haha. Thanks man.. at least someone thought it was cute. =) And I ask her if I could pinch her neh neh. She say no.. she dont have.. Meaning.. She dont have neh neh. Haha. Didn't like her during my sec one and two years.. But find her okay. Haha. She's nice. Yeah... Met eunice at bishan. One thing! Her concern's for real. Hahah. Ah~ She's sucha bandung. Bleahs....
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Tuesday, February 17, 2004
Been feeling this way since I got home. Since reading the letter. Since I got to know them. Since eons. Urgh. Have been questioning God.. alot. Dont tell me I'm wrong to do that. Cause I know you do it too. I reached out to face a world of uncertainties and discriminations. I didn't want that.. nobody wants it. But I've got it. Unwilling, unknowingly.. accepted it. That's life. It's never easy. And I dont like it. Maybe that's why she said not to read the bottom of the letter. You dont know how much I hate myself. Well, remembered Emily Jacob said something about the process of changing. It's all natural and we cant do nothing to change it. But one thing remains: the scars left behind after everything was done. And that pain can never be undone. It's not a beautiful world. Maybe I should just shut myself from everyone.... Who cries and feels the pain within. No one. Cause no one cares. Oh yes, I've got friends. But how many are really there when you need a shoulder or a hand when you're really tired and worn out? Once told myself to smile and carry on... I've got me and me alone. But to realise along the way that I really needed someone. Who can really understand? I'll smile... close my eyes and tell the world I'm really okay. I'll bury the hurt deep within so I'll be okay.. and your lamest friend you used to know. But I'm different each day.. Not always that laughing one you see by her friends. Been hit in that vulnerable spot just today. I took so much to overcome this. And you brought it all back. And I know... No one's perfect and I'm not too. I'm sorry that I'm not perfect. Cause I can never be. And because of this flaw.. it hurt me so badly... And since young, I tried to hide it. But I'm so sorry that you saw it and couldn't take it. I'll try not to let this bring me down. I know it'll one day. I might be gone when it does... and hope to be smiling and be proud of it.
//Jay Zhou - Gui Ji
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Monday, February 16, 2004
Spanish eyes.. By the Backstreet Boys.
Old song... I know. And it makes me cry.
I dont know why.
There's intruders in mua's blog. Who are they?
You dont like my music..... that's your buisness. Not mine.
Why do I bother myself with insignificant breathing embryo that takes up much breathing space on this earth..?
Urgh.
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Gonna change my blogskin ssssooooonnnn. I hope. -.- Yep. I hope. Soon. When I have the time. Argh. Slow.. I'm lagging. Irc's making me lag. Wadda hell. 4 more minutes. Waiting for the song. Why. Tell me why irc so many people using. Hai me lag like fuck. Whoa..... Lena's cup cake veh nice sia. Nice.. yummy. Okay. Wanted to cut monkey's hair today. Replied her letter. Nothing much happened. Was a super boring day. Two teachers blew up. Haha. Both science one some more. Having pms. Haha. Recieved V.day pressie from an unexpected person. Didnt expect her to give me. Just got to know her like a few days ago.. So yup. Returning?? Dont think so. Evil. Jamie owe me V.day pressie!! That toopid boy. Okay. Got a date with my stead tomorrow morning. Haha. 7 am, bus stop. Yeps. Scolded Goh wan zhen today. "scolded" She said something about our class peeps disturbing her. Was like Huh?! Do we even know her? NO.....~ Yep. Just counting on my lucky stars that she doesn't report to teachers. Dont want any trouble at the beginning of the year. I hate DCs and writing reports. Kept my record super clean last year.. hoping to do the same this year. I'm good girl. =) Yup, yup. Believe me, man. Stayed till 5.30 in school today. Flat face was on the phone. Fran said she was crying. So? So.. I dont know. Then eunice dont know why came and tell me she dont know what to say.. People's stead wanna break up. I was like.. Why tell me.. what can I do right? Break then break lor. Like I can stop it from happening. I'm NOT God. Haha. Alrights. I was being a lil mean. First time see Eunice so concerned. Yeppers. Feel like puking. Terrible sia. Still counting on ya, lucky stars. You should know what I mean =)
//Stacie Orrico - More to life
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Saturday, February 14, 2004
*runs around screaming..*Ah!! Friendster's crazy!! Okay, okays. Went to bishan with mummy today. Got sha and fran something for v day. One my stead, the other my pts.. so hafta get them something to mark this special day. This will be our third year together for me and sha. Haha. Me and fran broke up over a sweet I think. And got back. Lame, I know. Bought the big teddy!! Yay! And the black eye peas cd! Whoo~ Wanted to go for the mtv asia awards which is today. But. Hai. Alrights. Got two friend requests today. Met Charlotte at bishan in U2. Nope not that charlotte.. Charlotte Chia I think. She's Alicia's friend. Got to know her in primary school. Wow. After I change so much physically... she still regconise me. Haha. Cool. Me and Pauline okay le.... Haha. She's at east coast. Dont know if she's back yet. Complained that it was bored. She was with Vivian and this other guy. Okays. Wanted to go orchard this afternoon. But.... No one replied my msg except Fishy and Bon. Argh. Okay. Slimmer. Angry makes one old. Pulled a arm muscle. Sucks. It's painful.. obviously. Downloading songs and waiting for it to finish. Okay. Just forgot what I wanted to type. Urgh..... Hate it when things go this way. Got stm. Meaning.. Short Term Memory. Is there a cure for this? Remembered how I loved memory games when I was younger. My memory was superp. Till I hit the old age. Boo hoo. Always played the flinstones' memory game whenever I stepped into the arcade. Yeppers. Now.. I think I suck at it. And Leen~ I found the lyrics to the Khia song. Haha. I won. Peace off. Gonna go out with leen next sat to get the skirt. Need to msg evan too.... Eileen wants to go out with her. Yep. Gonna go leave a testi for Michelly. She wrote one for mua. So I'll be nice and return it. Cheers! What a good girl I am. =) Cant wait for monday to come.... Though I hafta wake up early for school...
//50 cents - Pimp
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Friday, February 13, 2004
I llllllluuuuuurrrrvvvveeeeee today! Whoo~ Haha. Alrights. Happy Valentines' Day. The toopid balloons burst-ed. twrice. So I gave up. Gave them an deflated balloon. Nope. Didn't give everyone. Recieved lotsa stuff. Okay. At least it's better than last year cause last year... I received lots of sweets and chocolates. This year.. not alot. This year they gave stuff. As in STUFF. Geddit? Didn't recieve my sunflower!! Bon wasn't here. Okay. So received 3 roses in all... 2 pink and 1 red. And lots of other pretty stuff. Haha. Gonna get something else for my stead and pts. Fishy and Far(equals sha). Threw away three chocolates.. melted like fuck. So threw them away. No choice la... Today was the best. Well, the lower sec peeps dont seem to celebrate V. day. Jamie Chung owe me pressie! Alrights. She 'gave' me one.. The glow band. Me and Sha bought the last three. She took two and I took one. Then.. Jamie came over to our table in the canteen.. Dont know what happened.. Jac got this ORANGE glow band from her.. Then I screamed that I want the pink and green one. I got it~! Haha. Nice sia. I want the orange one too.... Okay. Never mind. Couldn't get the colors we wanted cause the fucking sa-m-pa-ed sec ones bought sssssoooooo many. Shitified. Haha. Anyway. Today was a real enjoyable day. Yep. Talked to Mindy.. Beck's twinnie.... Asked me to fold star but her straw lan already.. Then asked her go find pau. To do.. Cause was rushing..
Went to tp.. like I said. Meet this ex-pl lite. She's in tp. Haha. Received this style racer back and a free copy of 8 days mag. Tp is so huge and cool sia. Didn't know Yuan Li interested to study that poly. Cindy also. One thing I can confirm.. alot of pl lites wanna go that school. Yep. Upon reaching the poly. Me and sha had gone mad. Haha. We were like laughing and laughing. Non-stop. Till we left tp and went up the bus... we were still laughing. Like mad dogs. Hee. Dont know how we ended up talking about black forest. Haha. Meaning the chee bye hair. Talked about raja's. Then on our way to the bus stop... Sha said black forest wrongly. Called it rain forest. Then, me and her started laughing again. About? Cause I said when she pee... then it become rain forest. We were laughing and laughing except Jacintha. Laugh and laugh non-stop. Had the laughing diease. And we were dissing PL from our way there all the way till we left the place. Diss and diss non-stop. Haha. Made this cheer for them.. Tp peeps like robots sia. One perosn will say.. "TP say Bye~" then they will response "bye~" Like robots sia. Haha. So anyway.. Was recalling the 1g'02 cheer during camp. And thought of one to bring pl down. Here goes nothing:
What is the banner in the drain called?
PL!
Who are the losers of the field?
PL!
Who dares to mess with them will be champions,
who dares to mess with them will be champions.
Na~ Na~ Na~
PL sucks!
Haha. Cool..... Love dissing PL. Sha and me hate PL to the core of the earth sia. Argh.. Sucky school. I like this day.. Friday the 13th which happens to be today.
till today.. I wonder why she's not mine all that I've done. Where is she.. and God, please answer me.
//Khia - My neck, my back
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Thursday, February 12, 2004
Ah.............!! So tired. Argh. Played captain's ball with the sec ones. Won.. of course =) 11 to 3. But two out of their three goals cheated de.. Sickening. And I dont like the class that played with us. I dont like sec ones. Well, except some I suppose. Haha. Alrights. I'm really, really, really tired. Ran alot today.... 5 rounds of the 1500m. Cheated. Haha. Sprint my heart out.. didn't really do my best. Should be able to go faster for the relay. Third runner so not so bad. Was leading. =) First time sia... Very happy. Got third. *Crosses finger* Really really hope to get into da finals. But even if we dont, I'm happy. We were third. Not bad for lane six. Cause normally lane six peeps running in it.. usually comes in the last few. So we were not bad. I must say.. Eunice very fast sia! I was counting the 9 steppings for her and when I finished and on my way back.. she was reaching me already. Haha. She's one fast freak. And jac they all who were watching us run.. said I was leading..! Whoo~ and was kinda fast too. Till the back where I slowed down cause I was waiting for sha to start off..... Haha. My passing to sha sucks man. Guess I screwed it all up. Yuen and Eunice saw it too.... Argh. But alrights, they said I did a good job. Good run, I suppose. So.. I was okay. At least they didn't blame me for the blunder I made. Kept telling them I was so freaking nervous lor.. Say what.. I might be the slowest there.. blah blah blah.. Then.. turned out that I was the fastest. Wha. I v. happy can. Walked back to where they were and all said "Good run". So please with myself. =) *beams*It was all because of Eunice. She kept pressurising me. Say what.. "Must run ar. Fast. Try your best". She pushed me.. suppose that helped abit. Our team rawks! Oh yeah baby. Ran the 1500 for the house. Mrs Tee was so pleased. Cause it wasn't complusory for Leerians to run. But we did anyway. So she gave as this green file. So cute can..... Haha. Very happy with the relay thingy. But very tired...
Going tp tomorrow on our own. Cant wait sia... Tp and Lasalle.. my dream school. Next fiday to lasalle. Not confirm though.
Next monday, Sha, Pauline and Jamie running 800m.. Watching Jac do high jump. That girl can jump sia. She's gonna grab the gold! She's my kuku bandung. Haha. Me, fran, Mei hui, Jac, pui forming cheerleading team for Jamie. Slogan reading: Jamie Chung, the stupid monkey. She really look like monkey. Haha. Feeling so thirsty. Drink so much water le.... Sha can do 800.. if she tries hard. I.. cant. I suck at long distance. Better at short. But two hundred......... cant really do fast. 100m can.. not really good though. I pray that we get into finals sia.... Our team rawks. yeah.. and I need to bathe. I stink =P
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Wednesday, February 11, 2004
Tired....... Very tired. Why? No idea myself. Did some sprints today during PE. Before that ran 4 or 3 rounds. I passed my chem!! Thought I would fail like there's no tomorrow.. Sha got the highest. 20.5 Wo. Haha. I passed anyway. As long as I pass, I cant be bothered about the marks. Yeah. So, no chem remedial for mua. I'm so freaking happy. Stayed back till 5 plus with yuen, sha, pui, mat, eunice, pris.. watched and somehow.. cheer for the peeps doing the heats. Vandalised Manda's leg today~! Yay!! Haha. Slept during chapel. One of the best sleeps I had during school. Was so tired.. Even now. Been running and walking.. alot. Sat at the track for long while.. Decided to get up to class to get our bags. Got stopped by sandra ang for not wearing name tags. Then, this sec one or two girl approached her talking about the 1500m mass. Took this opportunity to get away from her. Me, sha and pui ran all the way up. And they were laughing at how I ran..... -.-|| I ran...... sideways according to them. Been running like for a while ready. Sha tried to copy. But did not succeed. This proves my style is cool and un-copy-a-ble. Yeah. But quite fun la.. running like that. Makes me go faster. Okay, back to heats. Went to watched cause we supposed yuen was there cause ah-zi-la was there. DOnt laugh. I dont know how to spell her name. Funny~ Okay. We went to cheer her on. Did some real dumb things. Sat down later and talked abit. Talked about dancing.. She saw me and yuenzamania dancing during PE.. Wha........ So pai seh. Waddahell. Kept insisiting that I wasn't me... cause she wanted me to dance. And no... I didn't dance. Haha. Asked everyone who wanted sweet and fadli happily took it. -.- I still thinks Ah-zeeeeeee-la sounds better. She called me something ending with "bi" Dont know what. Cant remember. Oh.. Baby. I was like huh? Baby? Then Sha explained.. She say I very small so she call me that. Whahaha. That's like funny. Me.. small? Dont quite fit the criterial. <- spelling error, I know. [Okay.. some Terry person just talked to me in msn.. who da hell is that?!] Heex........ Anyway. The whole baby thing went on. She was about to go off.... And said something sounded like "ni" or "bi" I dont know.. and said bye.. showing that face. Argh. Erase that baby thingy off!! Alright, I've got heats tomorrow and I dont wanna run.....!! Big jie jie say must try our best. They've got a slacker within the team. Yuen's 1st runner.. Eunice, second... Me, third. Sha, obviously, last. Tension~ baby...... Dont wanna run..........!!!! But cannot slack la. Try me best. Might be slower or abit faster than the snail.. I'll try. *Crosses fingers... Wish me all the energy and speed~!
One last thing. Ah-zeeeeee-la run like ultra-man.. very fast. Super straight. Gorilla run 1500, can you believe it...... Haha. I'm a happy person.. for today.
//Daniel Bedingfield - If you're not the one
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Tuesday, February 10, 2004
Argh... Darn the fucking setup. It's taking ssssoooooooo looooonnnnngggggg! It's making everything go so sssslllllloooooooowwwwww. Argh.
Nothing much happened. Had geog test which I suppose I will flung big time and social studies test which question three was a lil incomplete. Didn't have time lah. Cant write when I'm under huge pressure where everyone finished and you haven't. Argh. Sat with leen for chinese.. Had itchy nose........ leaked and leaked. Lao shi said it was very er xin. Haha. Me and leen were laughing and laughing leaving the whole class wondering why. Read the ke out loud without stopping. Leen vandalised my leg~! Drew her ugly la bi xiao xin.... and her ham chi peng face man.. I drew on her hand.. "Amanda was here on 100204" and got her scolded for drawing on her hand. Haha. Something super exciting happened during math. I actually did a question by myself and got it correct. Yay! I love math.... for the first time. It gives me headaches. And I get real irritated if I dont understand something and no one explains it the way I wanna know things.... Geddit? Going TP on friday!! Ahhh... Excited!! TP....... my dream school. They're having an open house from 12-14Feb. So heading down with Sha and 3d1 on friday. Tagging along to breathe the air from my dream school. Haha. Yeah. Stayed back a little while today. Wanted to stay with Bon and wait till she finished her duty. Had nothing to do and was bored... as usual. But turns out that the teachers were on a course and the person told her there's nothing to do so me and her happily took the 62 and found that they changed their route. Had to walk two bustops just to get to heartland. Stupid us. Went to heartland to find poser and the rest. Manda told me about the bung inside yoshi. Man... that one bung ar? Eeeeeeewwwwww. Ah bung bu cheng gong. So girly! Look at the way she's sitting. Pukes. I realise Cerlyn cant pronouce chinese words properly..... Haha. Kept correcting her. =P
Today... was a pleasent day. Not heading to Toa Payoh today. Going on thursday. Cause thursday staying back for heats..... Was in the hall for briefing and I kept saying "I dont wanna run! I'm slower than a snail.......!" Sha went... "Yeah right. That's a lie!" And we started laughing. Bleahs. Lamers are we. Lamers rules! Yeah! Peace.
Girls dont like boys. Girls like cars and money~!
//Eminem - Sing for the moment
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Monday, February 09, 2004
Yay! I'm home! Yuen, me, sha went to centre point cause I wanted to check the balloons thingy.. Man. It cost 17.95. Wtf. So expensive. Their balloons made of gold. We ate at the Graffiti Cafe. Drew on the table. Spent.. 4+1.50+3=8.50. I'm left with 50cents for the rest of the week. How amazing. I didn't know I had 9 bucks with me. All the while I thought I had only 8. Haha. Okay. Took lotsa pictures. Nope. No neos. Cause didn't have money. Yep. Took pics in the train, on the bus.. On the escalator... In the centre point lift. Where else? No more. The one in the lift was cool.. Looked like we were in a disco or something. We all have a fetish about taking pictures. if someone brought a camera.. We'll take like whao.. Have 8 testis to approve..... And 7 of them came from Fishy!! All the same de. Haha. Stupid gerl.
Gonna go tp on friday! Not confirmed yet though.. just getting a lil too excited.
Okay. Forgot what I wanted to say. Oh. Had the health check today. Choy. Nothing ones. Just bend down and check backbone.. Thought they wanted to see our boobies' growth. Make me oh so excited. =) Anyway, have to go for mmr soon... Hate injections!! Then, me and sha waited for yuen.. And winnie, jasmine, cindy, patrina, sha, me and yuen sat down and talk cause we wanted to miss geog lesson. And we did. She didn't come to class. Hmm.. found out that Cindy and Patrina were really nice to talk to.. Talked about fake and real tattoos and piercing. They're going to kbox on Saturday. Asked if I wanna join them. Didn't give them an answer cause.. me and kbox...... dont quite fit together. Yeah. There's social studies tomorrow. It's so boring. Math remedial and gonna ask my mum out tomorrow... Yeah. To get balloons. The cheap one. Sha checked it out. Hmm... Shall get that. =) Big news!! I talked to Pauline today during the health check and bio.. she looked eager to talk to me or was it all in my head...?
//Backstreet Boys - How Did I Fall In Love With You
Remeber when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone
Those days are gone, and I want so much
The night islong and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight
What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble
I cannot pretend that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight
What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know
I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life
What can I do to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
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Went in search of lollies today just to realised it was closed for the day. How interesting. Begin the day late today. Felt like I missed almost half the day. Hate that feeling. Didn't do much. Broke the personal record of walking from Raffles to Tanjong Pagar. Hell yo, the place was like a ghost town. Walked across the road like it was my father's. Gonna go to Novena Sq tomorrow.. in search of pink heart shaped balloons. If i cant find the lollies. =) Need a pump for the balloon. Cant possibly blow it myself. I'll die. Hope she remembers =) Guess I regretted taking Art. Cant draw for Christ's sake. Always regretting after making a decision. Fickle minded? Yes, I am. No denial cause denial means admitting. And no, I wont deny. Once did and got hurt real bad. And I stopped. Protective of myself. Falling and hurting. What is God doing with me? Dependent on love? Maybe. Hopeless believer in fate? Hell on. Cant believe I'm actually saying all these crap. Have faith and it will move moutains.. I said that before, didn't I? Heard it during morning assembly. One of the meaningful ones.. one of which I actually remembered. Have faith, have faith, have faith.. they always say. I did. But look at me now. I'm not a strong believer in God. I do.. pray. And left my well kept secrets with him. Guess I crap just too much and he had it with me.. left me and kept me waiting. Mdm Ho said: "You girls blame everyone but yourselves" True, very true. The school theme song 2003 said.. "There is a candle in every soul.." My frizzled out silently. I needed light. So shine on me... And I feel that this is getting very depressive and crappy.. Set me on fire and let me die.
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//Kathy Triccoli - Go light your world
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Saturday, February 07, 2004
Hearing:
Just got home from school not long ago.. Had the field trip today. Went to chinatown.. The place's..... boring. My first time there though. Drew the shop houses which looked like shit. And some chinese lanterns. Got a chance to go to Melacca... but forfeited it cause if I go.... not only I have to pay 42 bucks and draw too. Argh. Hate drawing cause my drawing sux! Was starving..... Ong bring us to that Killiney Kopitiam got nothing to eat de..... their kaya toast sucks. I prefer Ya Kun's. So....... didn't eat...... just drank milo. Stayed back for a little while... Waited for Fran and Winnie...
Went to bishan after that... had my lunch. Mos! Went there in two separate buses. Before getting up the bus.. Bon was talking on the phone... then she told me that her.. think it's her granny... died at one plus. I was like.. Huh?! You joking ar... Why so sudden...
So scary can..... that someone can just 'go' like that.
Took 8 beam.... the seven of us.... bon didn't want to take. So yar.... Oh. Bought tissues from this old ah ma.... she so poor thing can... Anyway only one buck so I buy lorx. Did a good deed today =) feel so proud. =))))
Now I'm home.... tired.
Today.. wasn't a very bad day for me.... =)
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Tuesday, February 03, 2004
Hearing:
Stayed back today.... Got home not long ago. Had Mac's for lunch. God damned. The heartland Mac was infested with PL lites. Argh.........
Had to sit outside and bear with the chlorine smell. Stinks sia...
And now.... friendster's taking so freaking long! I hate friendster. I think the webmaster needs to do something to the server BADLY. Friendster stinks.
Okay...
Then.....
Spend the rest of the day in class... Fran and Sulynn.. Wont touch on that. Cause.....
It's none of my buisness =P
And I still miss her so....
They always say.... Believe in God and that faith can move mountains.
Crap.
Save me all these heart break. Save me all these tears. And Lord, I pray with all my heart and soul..... to see her once again and I'll be smiling once again.
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her king;
swirlies;
glitter;
stars;
tortisefamily.
